Motherhood
I don't know if I'm a sane person or not. What makes a sane person? I wrote motherhood in red because for me it has taken blood, sweat and tears to be a mother. I don't understand women who say that being a mother is the easiest thing they do. For me, being a mother or more appropriately a mom, is the most difficult thing I do. Is it easy to love my children? Yes, of course. Is it easy to like them? Not always! I think women who think this is easy do not have teenagers! I feel like I am becoming more and more insane the older my children become. Maybe just maybe I love them too much. Maybe my love for them and wanting the best for them is what is making me less sane. Then again, what makes a sane person? Is there anyone out there that is sane? Or are we living in a world of billions of insane people and the ones taking drugs like Prozac are the most sane of all of us? They recognize the fact that they are not sane which makes them less insane! I don't have the answers. I just hope one day I wake up and feel like who I am and what I've done was good enough so I don't feel so insane.
Yours truly,
Cecilia
